no sleep because of the dang spiders

Last night was a struggle for me to sleep. Right before we went to bed we saw a bug right above our bed. I don’t know what it was. It looked like a mix of a spider and a millipede. This thing was scary, and fast too! When I tried to catch it it ran all over the place. Also when I tried to catch it, my dog just so happened to brush up on the side of my leg. Talk about freaking out! I thought the bug had attacked me.

Now don’t think my house is dirty b/c we have bugs in it. I mean, it isn’t the cleanest of houses, but it is not what I would consider dirty. Our apartment is adjusted partially below ground level. For some reason this causes bugs to get it in easier. We have found big spiders, millipedes, rolly-pollies, and Tim says he has found more but he won’t tell me b/c I will freak out. Our apartment also sprays for bugs regularly, and we still get them. We soon found out that the Pest Control people do not guarantee they will get rid of the spiders. Great. The one thing that we want to get rid of we can’t. Supposedly (and our house is evidence of this) spiders are immune to the pesticide spray…or what ever the pest control spray is called. They also do not make this guarantee because if someone got bit and were sick after they sprayed, they could get sued. So, we are stuck with the spiders. Great.

We absolutely love our apartment. It is really great. Really. But last night as I laid awake freaking out b/c I thought a spider or some other bug was going to drop on my head from the ceiling, I kept thinking that I couldn’t live like this and I want to move out. That is crazy talk and my husband would not hear of it. Not that I talked to him about it, he was fast asleep. He told me not to think about it. How in the world is that possible?! I eventually fell asleep, but it was to a restless sleep. Every once and awhile I would jerk awake thinking there were bugs on me.

Also, I kept thinking of that old children’s song that has to do with spiders. You know the one. It is meant to send chills up your back. Here is a refresher:

Spiders crawling up your back

You’re going smack, smack, smack

Spiders crawl up, Spiders crawl down

Spiders crawl up, Spiders crawl down

They bite you! They bite you!

Tight squeeze, and now you’ve got the willies!

I know, it is weird, but I that kept going through my head last night. Maybe tonight will bring better sleep.

100th Post- ok, actually it is my 101st post, but who is counting

1. The very first thing I want you to know about me is that I am rescued/saved by Jesus Christ. There is no good in me but from Him. His Grace covers me. All of me. For all eternity. He is the One and Only way to Heaven. His love abounds all. He is good. He chose me, I did not choose Him. I have done nothing to deserve Him in my life. I fall short of Him constantly. But there are new mercies every day. He is the only thing that can bring me true peace and joy.
2. I was raised in a small town, 5,000 people.
3. I am the oldest of four children.
   

   Necie, Josh, me & Diana

4. I absolutely love my brother and sisters and am so proud of each of them.
5. I want a big family one day.
6. I am married to this wonderful man.
   

   Tim and Me

7. A lot of times I don’t know who I really am (which makes it hard to figure out what to write here )
8. I am terrified that I am going to get into trouble often.
9. I love rules (b/c they tell me how to not get into trouble)
10. I feel obligated a lot.
11. This frustrates my husband a lot.
12. I didn’t realize how much I feel obligated to do things until I got married.
13. I expect a lot from myself, but most often fall short.
14. My favorite color is green
15. I used to think it was blue
16. I really want to do BIG things in this world
17. I get overwhelmed in all that needs to be done
18. I try to be a very organized person
19. But really I am not an organized person
20. My heart is in the Philippines
21. I want to adopt some Filipino kiddos
22. My husband and I are so different
23. But we are a like in a lot of ways too: mainly our moodiness
24. I love/want to travel
25. I love to look at pictures
26. I love the idea of being crafty, a good cook, a good photographer, and so much more
27. But I am really not any of those things
28. I do not have one ounce of creativity in my body
29. Which is unfortunate in my current job (promotions).
30. I am a couch potato
31. I really like movies
32. For some reason I like to try to watch scary movies, but I close my eyes through most of the movie.
33. And then the scary movie will haunt me for weeks (if it is a good one).
34. I live over 5 hours from my family
35. That makes me sad b/c I love the concept of a close family
36. If I lived close to my family again we would probably drive each other crazy.
37. My favorite magazine is Real Simple.
38. I am not as detail oriented as I once thought I was.
39. I love animals
40. I sometimes wish I chose a career where I worked with animals
41. There is no way I would make it through all of those science classes.
42. I really don’t like complainers
43. Which is odd b/c I tend to complain.
44. I don’t go to the doctor as much as the regular person.
45. I am not scared of the doctor, I just don’t ever think they will believe me.
46. Did I also tell you that I am weird?
47. When I was little I always claimed to be sick or hurt (but I was lying).
48. Now, I guess b/c I did that, I don’t think anyone has a reason to believe me.
49. I am scared of the dark.
50. I really think it is what I don’t know that is in the dark that I am actually scared of.
51. I have wrecked my car three times.
52. I am usually a really careful driver, but those three times I was a very stupid driver
53. I feel there are a lot of really stupid drivers out there.
54. I am spoiled and always have been.
55. My parents were so good to me growing up.
56. I was a horrible child at times.
57. Now my husband spoils me.
58. I have to try extra hard to make sure I spoil him as well.
59. I get jealous a lot.
60. I tend to waste my time/life wishing that I was someone else or had what someone else has.
61. I am not a planner.
62. But I LOVE to buy planners. (again on the weirdness)
63. I think dogs with smushed noses are so cute!
64. My family breeds boxers, has also had a boston terrier and now has a pug.
65. My husband and I live with two dogs, who are muts.
66. We love both of them, most of the time.
67. I am a member of Heritage Baptist Church.
68. Tim and I love that church.
69. I love the sound of dead leaves, snow, and gravel crunching under my feet.
70. I love wading through a creek.
71. I love water, but only if it is warm.
72. I am not a fan of the beach.
73. I still don’t know what I want to do with my life.
74. I plan a lot of different scenarios, but they change quite often and I don’t follow through.
75. I work in the pink room at church (2-3 year olds).
76. I think those kids are so much fun and so funny.
77. I like to take naps, especially on a warm rainy day.
78. I would love to have kids right now.
79. My husband wants to wait at least four more years.
80. I am going back to school for my MBA soon.
81. Hopefully that will get me a good job.
82. Did I mention I still don’t know what kind of job I want?
83. I love chocolate milk.
84. I crave it at times.
85. I get bored of food often.
86. I wish I knew how to budget my money better.
87. My mom blames herself for that, but I don’t.
88. I really want you to remember what I wrote in my last post.
89. I like to paint, but am not good at it at all.
90. I think there is so much beauty, wisdom, knowledge, love, guidance, and so much more in scripture.
91. I wish I read scripture more often.
92. I would love to do Big things for people who live in poverty.
93. I want to travel the world and rescue all of the orphans.
94. I don’t like money. It is too constraining. It holds too much power.
95. I often think of how it would be to live in the old days where women wore dresses, people rode horse, people lived off the land. I would love to try that out for a couple of years.
96. I so often don’t live my own life. I would like to start though.
97. I am a hard worker, if it is something I care about (I hate to say that last part, but it is the selfish side of me).
98. I like to go hiking.
99. I really hope you are not confused after reading all of these random tidbits about myself.
100. I like to act really brave or really hard a$$ often, but my husband laughs at me.

Ok, that was really hard. I hope you didn’t get bored.

I can’t take it anymore! I have to tell you something.

Ok, I haven’t posted in so long b/c technically this is my 100th post. I have been working on 100 things about me to go in my 100th post. I have actually been avoiding it b/c it is really hard! But I have two things that I want to post about and don’t want to wait anymore.

The first is this:

I have mentioned before that my husband and I want to adopt. We want to adopt internationally and we want the children to be older. We can have babies on our own. I want to give a home to the children that go unwanted b/c they are too old. It breaks my heart how easily those kids are passed up.

We have to wait another 2 years to even start the adoption process. We both have to be 27 years old (I just turned 25, July 17th) and we have to be married for at least 3 years (which we will be June 2010, two years). My husband wants to wait for at least five years to have kids. I told him the international adoption process usually take at least 2 years, so he said we could start the process on my birthday of my 27th year. Yippee! I am so excited about that! But man am I wishing I was 27 already! I would love to give this little girl a home! Rosena lives at the Rescue Center in Haiti that Licia and the rest of her family run. There are so many precious children there. Please consider bringing this child into your family. I know that there is someone out there who could love her and take care of her the way she deserves.

Here she is:

Rosena

The second thing I wanted to share with you is this:

A good friend of my husband is Daniel Trigg. This boy is so great. We both love him to death! Well, he is leaving a week from Saturday to be a Roadie for Invisible Children. Here are a couple pictures of Tim and Daniel.

Tim, Daniel (Trigg) & Diaz

Tim, Scalise & Trigg

Tim, Trigg & Diaz again, just hanging out

I really encourage you to check out Invisible Children. They are doing incredible things for the children and families over in Uganda. Here is the trailer for the full documentary.

These three guys went to Uganda in 2003 to film a story. They didn’t know what they would find. But they came back with their lives changed forever. Here is an update video clip that was made right before 2008 began by the creators of Invisible Children.

Ok, here is where Daniel comes into the picture. He has chosen take five months of his life and give it to the children in Uganda. Daniel is going to be a Roadie for the Invisible Children. Here is a video of what the next five months of his life are going to be about:

I am so excited for this boy and cannot wait to hear his stories when he gets back. Tuesday night Tim and I went to a send off party for him. It was so great. We got to hang out with friends we haven’t seen for awhile and then we watched this Invisible Children video (I really want you to watch this video if you haven’t already. not for me. for these children in uganda. and for you. so that you may be changed forever. however, it is almost an hour long. so watch it when you have some time). Then we prayed over him and said our goodbyes. I am so proud of this boy and so excited for him.

Misty

I am praying for this lovely lady today and for a miracle only God can pull off to be healed from this cancer that is taking over her body. Already the family is seeing results from so many people praying. Her MRI does not look as though she should be improving, but she is day by day. Glory be to God! Please join me today in praying for her and help to spread the word.

Pray for Misty

Child Slavery

I read a horrific news article this morning. It is amazing the things that I am blinded to that go on in this world. There are SO many other things that I can’t even fathom that happen in this world that most of the time I choose to not think of. It is uncomfortable to know these things go on and there is nothing I can do about it. I guess the old saying is right: “Ignorance is bliss”. But what the saying does not imply is that bliss is completely self centered.

A challenge for you today, venture out of your own world. Discover disturbing things that happen. Not for enjoyment, but for perspective. Maybe look into this, this, or this, this or maybe even this. I have had people tell me before that they know bad things happen out there, but they don’t want to think about it. They want to worry about themselves, or they have too much to worry about already. Let me just say that really breaks my heart. Not even choosing to acknowledge the suffering these people are going through seems like a dishonor to them. Like we are ignoring their existence. I may not be wording any of that correctly.

What are you passionate about? What do you want the world to know about?

Girls week!

My hubby is gone for a couple of days and has taken Blu, our male dog, with him. So, right now it is just the girls. Kansas, our female dog, and I have been really bonding over the last couple of months. I think she has discovered how much I like to cuddle. She was originally Tim’s dog, and so she was more loyal to him. But slowly and surely she is coming over to my side . I am loving spending time with this little girl!

Kansas & me

What to do, what to do?

My hubby is gone for the evening. I am bored. Of course there is lots of cleaning that could be done at our lovely abode, but I care nothing about partaking in that activity. I really don’t want to watch yet another movie or television show. What do you do in these situations? Do you read? Do you work out? Would you give in and clean?

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

Have you ever known anyone who disregarded any type of respect they should show their boss or person above them? Over the past couple of years I have been amazed at the little amount of respect people show others. Now, don’t get me wrong, I can be snappy/crabby/disrespectful too. But I have just been blown away by people showing up to work and just expecting everything to be their own way. I am not just talking about my own workplaces either. I have had people who are close to me fill management positions and have been blown away by their stories. Do people just not care about others the way they used to? Do they not want to recognize that the person they are yelling/cussing/whatever at holds the fate of their job? What is going on here people?!